Hoi Hoi from Amsterdam, Netherlands!

Hello all,

I hope you are doing well!

Writing after a few weeks feels very different. Specially this one. My inner tornado has finally settled. And strangely — when there are no storms, no tornados, it’s actually harder to write. When I don’t have mental peace, the words pour out easily.

But when there is calm? It’s tougher to explain what’s inside.

Maybe that’s a good problem to have. Amsterdam was special. Ferry rides, windmill tours, wandering through the Jordaan area — all of it was beautiful. But the moment that changed something in me was visiting the Rijksmuseum.

Specifically, standing in front of Van Gogh’s paintings.

Most people know his story. A tormented life transformed into breathtaking art. He expected something from the world that he never received. And that distressed him deeply, until the very end.

I stood there looking at his work and felt something shift.

Because I recognised something. The sorrow, the anxiety, the feeling that the world doesn’t care enough. The walls built around yourself. The belief that you are not worthy enough.

And I made a decision standing right there — I don’t want to be another Vincent. I don’t want to write sad blogs forever.

I don’t want to build walls and stay inside them.

I don’t want to hold onto my traumas, carry my fears, or let the version of me that I don’t like keep running the show.

I want to explore the world.

I want to be extrovert once again.

I want to enjoy life without fear.

I want to let go.

The world is kind enough for people like me. I truly believe that now.

So thank you Amsterdam, for teaching me that lesson.

To the next phase of life — cheers. 🥂

We will see each other again soon, with more positive stories, letters and postcards.

Dann, Bis Dann! Best Regards / M.F.G, Dheirya (Dee)