Moin Moin, once again!

Two blogs in two days? Woah, I must be motivated.

No, my stories are not meant to stay closed. I’m sharing experiences along with the lessons I’ve learned. So, let’s move ahead.

I recently saw a graduation ceremony reel where a young man shared something his mom once told him:

“ Love has four letters, and so does Hate. Friend has six letters, and so does Enemy. Lying has five letters, and so does Truth. Cry has three letters, and so does Joy. Negativity has ten letters, but so does Positivity. You always have a choice. Choose the better way.

“

Hmm.

Yesterday I shared how I’ve been trying to refactor my brain when it gets stuck in a feedback loop.

This looks like a good option, right?

So let’s move forward with the story.

I’ve been giving my full attention to moving ahead in life—living a more scheduled life and trying to focus on the positive things around me.

But here and there… moment after moment, minute after minute, day after day—when I’m having an absolutely great time, a bright and happy day— my brain suddenly tricks itself into remembering the bad experiences I had before.

And once that loop starts, the past scenarios do what they always do. One moment I’m laughing, and the next moment I become quiet and drift into silence.

Let me give you a real-life example. On a beautiful weekend, I’m hanging out with my neighbors. We’re having coffee, talking, joking around, and enjoying the moment.

But then, after just fifteen minutes of fun, my brain suddenly says:

“Hey, remember when you thought everyone was your friend? And suddenly one of them told you that you weren’t? And remember how they pointed out all the bad qualities about you?”

Strange, isn’t it?

For me, it sometimes feels impossible to fully enjoy the moment, because my brain believes that having too much fun will eventually lead to disappointment.

It’s like a detective that constantly searches for patterns. It compares the present with my past bad experiences and then quietly tells me to step back into silence—just in case those moments repeat themselves again.

But honestly, that might not even be a bad thing.

Maybe it’s just my brain trying to protect me. A safety net that says: “Don’t get too comfortable. Don’t get hurt again.”

😂😅 Well… when I think about it now, it almost feels like a laughable moment.

But for now, I don’t really have a clear answer for it.

When I learn more about why this happens—and how to deal with it—I’ll definitely share it with you.

Gotta go. Besides all this thinking, I still have a load of shit to do.

Dann, bis dann!

Best Regards / M.F.G, Dheirya (Dee)